Saturday, August 8, 2009
Some ladies take long to figure-out the purpose of being loved, some take long to love and end-up loving someone at the wrong time, when he is already taken. I was in love with this lady from home in 2005, unfortunately my feelings were blown away by the wind as they couldn't reach her heart. She used to leave me in the dark alone for other guys, in my sight. In concerts we went together, she met this guys and kissed in my presence then went away, later come back having this smell, that one after having sex. But all am told is cousins, inside my heart was pounding, outside my eyes lost tears, then later gave-up on her... Great love and trust came along with this other lady from somewhere in 2007, yes she might have taken long to please but she finally saw what my heart had for her to hold. She caused me litle pain but not in the cheating or rude way as that one... Year 2009, alone in my dark room, my phone rings, a private number, it was the lady from the past. Told me that she cares and still loves me and asked if I have damped her or otherwise... went onto ask when am gonna give her a child.. and the marriage thing... In me was this feeling for I got the love of my dreams, I have nothing to lose and nothing to gain with this one.
mom...It is cloudy, because you are moments away from me. I wish I can see you somehow, but know that you are in a better placesomewhere, and that I will see you at onetime. I wish I could stay with you, touch you, talk to you, feel yoour motherly love. A life without you seem so uncomfortable and miserable. Mom, I feel like I could never be happy without you, where ever you are, know that I really love and miss you in a way not easy to describe. I am mad about you mom even though I never saw you. I wish to see you atleast in my dreams, atleast, please mom get into my dreams. I have loved many but not as much as I do to you, I can never love someone like you. Even though time could let you to be with me, I still wish for it to take you back,and wish for God to take you as one of his olwn. Everyday and night, you are always in my heart, "I am you" that's whatthey say. Thank you for bringing me to earth even though I cannever do anything to thank you, nothing is worth the price. I wish for happiness but know that it is hard to have it, for you will never be here with me, as you wished for me to be, I willtry. Rest in peace my one and only loved earthly mother..